For most of my 58 years, I spent a lot of time energy comparing myself to others. I was searching for something outside myself that would make me feel whole.
I simply believed I was not enough.
I was raised Catholic, but ended up sitting in Atheism. I passed time being a hippy, a punk in the ACT, went a little wild on drugs, was a roadie for an Iggy Pop Australian tour in 1983, beheld Buddhism, did Vipassana, took LSD, ate Magic Mushrooms, believed in Avatar, followed John de ruiter, fire walked with Tony Robbins, built a brand and a restaurant, lived in Bessano del Grappa Italy, paid $1000 for a Transendental meditation mantra, tried Tibetian Pulsing with OMKA, breathed breathwork, got hypnotised, studied Neuro Linguistic Programming.
I have been bankrupt, lost friends, kept secrets.
I am not telling you this to impress you, rather I am telling you this to impress upon you that deep down I chose the trial and error way of life.
It has never been boring, not unlike late afternoon geography with Miss Broadbent.
Like most, I could write a book.
Because I felt a deep sense of deficiency I spent decades giving people around me the answers they wanted, thinking if I could keep those around happy then I could be happy myself. Alas, this is not a good plan for happiness. I have spent my entire life not being myself.
I became what surrounded me and I hid the authentic part of me.
I lived in fear of being my true self.
Then I found a coach, a person who believed in me even before I did.
I started to discard the ideas that I had assumed to get approval from others.
I am still gathering the courage to do my own imagining, my own believing but I have finally stopped relying on experts.
I am the only expert on my life.
Intuitively I stopped pretending. I stopped acting.
I started feeling, deciding and doing.
I started to live.
I WANT TO HELP YOU FIND YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF!
Right now I am a Life Coach, Mentor, Papa, Facilitator, Chef of 35 years, Author, Blogger, Enrepreneur and Founder of Caccoon Life.